Hardest pill I swallowed was realizing i meant nothing to people that meant a lot to me.

 Hardest pill I swallowed was realizing i meant nothing to people that meant a lot to me.

it's a bitter taste that lingers long after the initial shock has worn off. it's the realization that the people you loved, the ones you thought were your rock, your safe haven, didn't feel the same way about you. it's like being punched in the gut, repeatedly, until you can't breathe anymore.
i remember the feeling of numbness that washed over me, like a cold wave crashing against the shore. it was as if my whole world had been turned upside down, and i was left stumbling around in the dark, trying to find my footing. every step i took felt like a betrayal, every breath i made felt like a lie.
but the hardest part wasn't the realization itself; it was the aftermath. it was the trying to pick up the pieces of my shattered heart, the trying to make sense of the chaos that had erupted in my life. it was the feeling of being lost and alone, like a small boat adrift in a stormy sea.
and yet, as i look back on that experience, i realize that it was a necessary one. it was a wake-up call, a reminder that i deserved better. it was a chance for me to re-evaluate my relationships, to prioritize my own needs and desires. it was a chance for me to discover my own strength, my own resilience.
so, if you're going through something similar, if you're struggling to come to terms with the fact that someone you loved didn't love you back, just know that you're not alone. know that it's okay to feel the pain, to feel the anger and the sadness. but also know that you are strong enough to get through this, to come out the other side, scarred but wiser.